I've Always Wanted To Be A Writer

As my title states... I've always wanted to be a writer. Sadly though, I abhor it. I never know what direction I want to take. I have a difficult time putting my thoughts together coherently. I basically defeat myself before I even start. Today is going to be different though! Or well, I'd like for it to be...

I realized that I haven't written on here in two years. That's a LONG time for something to sit around unused. I read what I had previously written, and though a bit verbose and hella random, I ultimately decided I liked what I had posted. I need to do it more. So if for nothing more than future entertainment and memories, I'm going to start writing more consistently (and hopefully about more interesting topics). It's going to be tough, but when I really think about it... what do I have to lose? Absolutely nothing. It's not like anyone reads this and if someone does, they probably know me fairly well so (assumingly) they'd be nonjudgmental.

I'm not going to give myself a set goal though because wellllll, things don't typically pan out when I do that. For instance, I said I was going to start working out July 15th. Guess who STILL has yet to visit the gym, or slip their feet into a pair of athletic shoes for that matter???* So as I said, no goals for this girl lol. I'm going to take it a bit at a time. I will vow to write more often (which once in two years shouldn't be too hard to beat), but not specifically how often nor how long I think the posts should be. Hopefully through this exercise, I'll become more confident in my writing over time and eventually think of it as an easy task. I won't need to think about what I want to do, but just sit down and spew things out perfectly. Maybe I'm a dreamer, but I guess we shall just have to see :)


P.S. I've been watching too much "Awkward." I think it's also why I [have] felt so compelled to write haha



*SN: I HAVE lost 20 lbs. upon moving into my apartment/graduating though so it's not like I totally failed. I'm reaching another "goal" of mine (lose 45 lbs.), but just not in the manner I would have liked. Oh well, no complaints here, right?